My daughter, Kam, has been known to make us a bit crazy in her 15 1/2 years; she's a planner. What's next, who can come over, how many days until she gets her driving permit (which, incidentally, happened last week...oh, boy), and so on and so forth. With her, we are ALWAYS in a waiting pattern in anticipation of what's coming next...not much into being into the current moment.
Reality check: She's a lot like her momma. Yikes...did I just admit that!? Ya, you know that thing your parents say that goes something like, "I hope you have a child that is just like you"... Believe me, I have heard all the stories about how I used to always want to know what was coming next.
These last couple years have gone completely against my nature. I cannot plan. AT. ALL. I wait. Honestly, it has been very, very hard. But I am trying to see what God is teaching me. One of the things I am trying to do is enjoy the things that are happening TODAY while still allowing myself to hope for tomorrow. However, I'm trying to not let the hope for tomorrow become an obsession for tomorrow. Does that make sense? I REALLY am trying.
So, as we continue to wait for finalization for Punkie, for the path God is preparing next, I am so thankful that we have made it this far. We hope & pray that the wait is not much longer, but rest in knowing that God's timing is perfect.
I love "Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord", but truly, I feel sometimes like I've been waiting so long I could go toe-to-toe with Hercules. Ok, ok, I know that's not what it really means, but we all have our moments. The thing I continue to hold onto is that God does not waste a moment, and I can already see God in the midst of a lot of these moments while I wait.
Thank you, Lord, that you are strengthening my faith as I wait for your perfect timing. Please help me to live in today, loving all these moments, and living for You. Please show me when to plan and when to be still.
And now, my sweet daughter, who takes after me so, needs a back rub. BTW, please do pray for healing for some back/shoulder issues that she is having. Basketball season is just around the corner.
Be Blessed ~ Dardi