My original intention was to post a light-hearted Mother's Day post with some recent pictures, but I changed my mind. There will still be some recent pictures, but I've had some thoughts swirling around in my head ever since an encounter I had over the weekend.
Saturday night was Kameryn's junior prom. So fun to see my basketball playin', outdoor lovin' girl all dressed up! Our high school has a tradition called Grand March where all the kids are introduced before prom so everybody can see them all snazzied up. So, off we went with the majority of our crew to see our daughter/sister.
I made a mistake. I've gotten too comfortable in the circles we tend to navigate with our family...basketball games, church, etc...where people know us. You know, no explanation necessary. This was a whole different ball game (ha, no pun intended). As we were leaving the high school with the masses, stopping here & there to say hello, I suddenly hear, "Looks like you're starting all over again." Enter my mistake. I had not mentally prepared for such an encounter & was caught off guard. While I don't feel the need to explain myself to people, I am fiercely protective of our children & don't want them to ever feel like they are something less than the blessing that they are.
But that's how this comment came across. This woman hasn't seen us in years, but her comment came without a smile & an undercurrent of utter disdain. And all I could come up with was, "This is where God has called us." Really, Dardi? Blech. While God has placed growing our family on our hearts, I'm afraid that statement leaves a whole lot out & makes it sound like our choice--our privilege--to keep parenting is some do-good project instead of the complete joy & blessing that it is. Seriously ticked at myself for that. Seriously.
What I really wanted to say was, "Motherhood, along with my faith & my marriage, is my heart, soul, & passion. I do not see it as something to merely survive & get over with. It is an honor & a privilege, full of laughter & tears, messes & pretty moments, but that's part of being a parent. Getting to watch as these children grow into beautiful individuals makes every tough moment worth it. God has brought all 9 of my children in a unique, significant way into our lives, & I shake my head in complete disbelief every day that I get to be their mom." In a nutshell:
No, I am not 'starting over'. I get to continue on...."
Happy Mother's Day, right? Rant over. Thanks for letting me vent...now onto the good stuff....
So fun to have Kaelee home from South Carolina! Painting toes, a picnic in the park, & feeding the ducks have helped make up for lost time!
Dad teaching Kam how to fry fish like Grandpa does.
Yes, that's her real hair (lol...someone asked me if she got extensions), yes, that's natural curl, & yes, I did her hair for prom.
Kemeri got to hang out with KiKi during pictures. So cute.
Once upon a time people thought they were twins...Now people think Kyler is older. When did this happen!?
Keshia (Kearsten's best friend from college), Kam, & KiKi
Finally, a picture with all of us now that Kaelee's home! Not the best with the funky shadows, but it's what we got for now. THIS is the reason my heart is so full...and THIS is the reason I hope that maybe next time somebody has a little somethin' to say I will be better prepared to respond.